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In the last few days, I've drastically cut down on smoking [rolling tobacco, Adıyaman]. This is my third attempt, first without the help of general anesthesia. I'm experiencing a new high, something that's much more fun than smoking itself or even that first, buzzy cigarette you have after a short break. I hope it's the quitting (or cutting down, I'm not sure what's the final goal here) and not something else wrong with me.

I've actually started feeling the blood flow to my extremities and other appendages. It's a weird, peaceful -- almost meditative -- and healthy feeling. (Oh gods, I hope it's not an illness.) It's what feels like would be the opposite of numbing, like when you warm up after coming in from playing out in the snow. I like to attribute it to O₂ replacing CO and CO₂ in my blood.

Spin

The Grizzly Bear is huge and wild;
He has devoured the infant child.
The infant child is not aware.
It has been eaten by the bear.

A.E. Housman, Infant Innocence

Robert Charles Wilson's Spin is the best sci-fi book I've read in a while. It's hard to say what captivated me, but I remember the I-must-go-back-to-reading-it feeling from before: From when I was reading Anathem.

Terry Pratchett on Religion

"I would much rather be a rising ape than a fallen angel."

The Garden Path

As I was walking down the garden path sentence was stuck in my head.

Also, what kind of mind comes up with this while sleeping so the owner has to take notes when they get up to pee?

Forgetfulness

Forgetfulness is a good thing; it indicates that one's life does not consist solely of routines.

The Ballad of Serenity

Take my love, take my land
Take me where I cannot stand
I don't care, I'm still free
You can't take the sky from me
Take me out to the black
Tell them I ain't comin' back
Burn the land and boil the sea
You can't take the sky from me
There's no place I can be
Since I found Serenity
But you can't take the sky from me...

Thinking With Portals

When I think I'm growing old, I say to myself: "It could've been worse. I could've grown up without Portal."